Right now I am smiling. My heart is full of joy and I am so grateful for all the many blessings I have in my life. My heart is overwhelmed with gratitude to God for not only hearing my prayers but answering them in ways I could not have imagined and it’s all because I have been obedient to what He has asked me to do. I’m going to share part of my spiritual and work/life balance journey with you.
Since Magdalene was born I have been eager to blog consistently and I have invested a lot of time into my blog. I have invested hours which I have never been paid for and I have spent money in keeping it going. The dream and plan was to build the blog so that I would have a market for my potential book, however the more I have blogged and the more I have learned about blogging, the more I have realized that it could potentially be the business I dreamed of starting for myself giving me flexibility to be a full time stay at home mum to my girls.
But here’s the thing. I’m impatient and I can get a bit grumpy if I can’t get my list of things done each day for my blog. So in the past, for me to get a blog post up or learn a bit more about keeping a blog , I would plant Esther in front of the television and put Magdalene in her swing to sleep so I could grab an hour or two in front of the computer. Of course, Esther would come up to me after 15 minutes or so asking me to come out and I would coax her back to the television with snacks. And then I’d feel guilty that I hadn’t spent time interacting with her. I felt and knew that my priorities were screwed up. Family had to come first and business had to come second.
As I reflected on how I felt, I knew God was gently telling me through my conscience that I needed to spend more time praying and reading the bible to gain wisdom in getting the right work/life balance. If I wanted to hear from God and if I wanted my work to prosper, I would have to pray and read the bible more. My mind would argue but If I don’t work on my blog, or post new articles, I lose traffic and readers and it will keep me back further from seeing my dream become a reality. The message I got clearly from God was to only work on my blog early in the morning or at night when the girls were in bed. When they were awake during the day I was to spend time with them and be an intentional parent.
It has been hard. I feel like I have been going against the grain, well my grain, but since working on my blog at night, the traffic to my blog has grown and I have been offered my first sponsored post (a blog post where I am paid for my opinion) for a quality tool brand that my family has used over 2 generations. I really believe God brought this opportunity to me to show me that He is Sovereign and when I follow His counsel, He will bring in opportunities that I couldn’t have organized on my own.
For the last ten days, I have been sick with a cold and I still went to work for two days. As any mum knows, it sucks having a runny and blocked nose when you’re breastfeeding because you can’t take any medication to stop the symptoms. So it was exciting when I got an email last Saturday night to say I had won a Blackmore’s Health pack worth approximately $199 with vitamins to build up my immunity against the cold and flu. Here was another example of how God’s provision was timed perfectly and precisely when I needed it.
So the reason I am smiling is because I am overwhelmed with gratitude to God for helping me to be a better mum. My family is better for it, my heart and mind aren’t working overtime on how to keep it altogether and my needs are being supplied in ways I hadn’t imagined they would be.
I encourage you to listen to your heart and change your priorities if the people you love are suffering from your bad choices. Family must come first and work needs to follow second. Reversing the order round won’t do you or your family any good.
Psalm 1:2-3 But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.